Paradise Lost EP (2013)

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This album was my own kind of musical therapy.

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released May 25, 2013

© RezErected Records/ Ol' Dirty Records

Written & produced by: Evan "Rude" Ferris [unless shown otherwise]
Recorded, engineered & mixed by: Erik "Enkrypted" Jusenius

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Rude Max is an alternative hiphop Emcee and Producer from Missoula, MT.

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Track Name: Lost [Intro]
This is the intro to my album... basically this song explains what the whole album is going to be about. How i lost my love for creating music and had some bad time s that made it hard to live but everything turns out good in the end... This was my therapy to overcome many issues. I hope you enjoy the album.
Track Name: Kraken!
Kraken

down a shot of vodka, another to oblivion
i'm giving in, let me show you what i'm living in
it's kinda hell, but it's pretty much my whole life
anxiety of all types, i'm cutting out my mind tonight
i've seen the path to find the white light
but in time soon i'll probably lose my eye sight
i found a tunnel i walk now, in madness
through all the songs i wrote, nope there's no hope
and some day i'll find myself, but this aint me
i've been lost in this world for two centuries
believe in me, it's getting harder and harder to breathe
i can't stand up, and i really can't sleep, so
i keep screaming, pass out, i'm dreaming
i'm thinking of all the things i wanna do without reason
i keep dreaming, wake up, i'm screaming
i'm thinking of all the ways to release my old demons, now


i've got nothing say to you, never
it's always better set sail in bad weather
you'll never steer me away, i'm too swift
but the kraken tries to battle, rattle and sink my ship
i'm under pressure, i'll hurry and i'll pull the lever
i'm never better, so i'm gone and i'm lost forever
i'll say goodbye, i've left it all there's no tears
nothing else matters to me, it's finally all clear
Track Name: Antidote (feat. CR)
Antidote

[Rude]
i'm on the back of a four legged beast
i got compassion for all those deceased
i got memories, locked in my head
they keep me awake, cold shaking in bed
i feel dead, there's no one that can save me
i'm running laps, but the world won't face me
fuck em all, i'll always keep on racing
to the end of the earth, death i'm now chasing
i'm just pacing, back and forth, now
i won't stop till i hear the wolf howl
and all the times i'm let down and hurt
it's like i'm walking alone on the black road cursed
i need a hero, a savior, a friend
some one who will say my name when it's the end
i'm about to give in, there's no way to win
i need to take a last breath and let the poison's sink in my skin

[Hook- Rude]
you cannot save me, there is no antidote
you will not save me, i have no antidote
you want to save me, i suggest that you don't
cause they all hate me, and they'll make sure that you won't

[Rude]
eyes closed, my heart bates racing
i've spent 46 minutes debating
can i get my ass off of the sofa
into the world, to smell the great aroma
i've got peddles of roses inside
and my feelings will hopefully die
because of you, i'm feeling alive
more than i've ever felt like this, and why
your not mine, you'll never be apart of me
it's all fine, i hate you so pardon me
for all the times, i lied and got caught
and most of all, when we always just fought
with no clue it would turn out bad
the last 3 years, were the worst that i've ever had
i'm not mad, but i won't grin
i need to relax and drift away again

[Hook- Rude]
you cannot save me, there is no antidote
you will not save me, i have no antidote
you want to save me, i suggest that you don't
cause they all hate me, and they'll make sure that you won't

[CR]
now let me take a moment to rest, i gotta catch my breathe
i'm struggling trying to finally get this off my chest
and i ain't trying to be the best, i'm just trying to watch my right follow my left with each undivided step
that i take, choice that i made, that reflects and explains the person that i am today
and i wouldn't change, even if i could go back in time and rearrange the corruption and destruction that took place in my mind
and this time i'mma leave you a note, and say goodbye to my soul cause there's no antidote
and if you got hope, don't waste it on me
i'm left for bail like the meat that the predators seeks
it's been weeks since i had a clean thought in my head
so many times i wanna act but i get lost in the mess
with one breathe, i can take it back, live and forget
but that's not an option when you happen to live this death
Track Name: Earthshattered
Earthshattered:


[verse 1]
you're bad mood aint nothing to me
i've seen it multiply times three
the enemy inside you is free
and i can breathe, it's like a cure to my disease
and trust me i could tell you one thing
it's been along time, you're my queen and i'm you king
ding, ding, did you hear the bell ring
that's another year we've been through with no sting
cloud nine, start the day off right
we'll smoke a shit ton of herb tonight
it's just me and you, we're so tight
and just for tonight we'll pretend we don't fight
it's okay to be jealous sometimes
and hold her, you gotta look in her eyes
and tell her, her smell makes you high
i'm addicted to you, hey i don't know why?

[hook]
i can show you how to take
if you can show me how to give
i can show you how to die
if you can show me how to live
i can be your hurricane
if you can be my rescue team
i can be your holocaust
if you will burn right next to me


[verse 2}
a year ago, i met you
on Facebook, then i met you in the zoo
we were both young, we were both dumb
but one thing i knew, well i was in love
we used to sleep in my car at the golf corse
always smoked bowls with a bong on my back porch
but then it switched up, we weren't together
that's when we hit hard and found ourselves the bad weather
you're personality, i loved had now died
i found texts about you having sex with other guys
your not shit, and i really fucking hate your lies
between your thighs, open wide, your pussy's triple sized
your playing life like a game, no one survives
i forgave you in the last song i wrote and cried
i almost died, so lighten up, and get high
you're the biggest mistake bitch, i hope dies


[hook]
i can show you how to take
if you can show me how to give
i can show you how to die
if you can show me how to live
i can be your hurricane
if you can be my rescue team
i can be your holocaust
if you will burn right next to me

if you will burn right next to me
if you will burn right next to me
if you will burn right next to me
will burn right next to me
Track Name: Word To Mankind
Word To Mankind

insanity, i'm captain sailing in this stranded sea
with all these black ships, the pirates pillage all your fantasies
i'm vanishing, and banishing you all to foreign lands
i'm smash the castles, waging war with a sword in my hand
i'll bring the panic, i'm lifeless, i'm satanic
and i'll pass around the cannabis and blaze it with the cabinet
a bit dramatic, automatic, on a drug relapse
hearing all the static, smoking blunt as my lungs collapse


i rip apart the day replaced it with the night
we're amount the deaf and blind, now we're all gonna die
we're all gonna die
we're all gonna die


i'm so delirious, man i am so curious
why is every girl that's on my nuts always on her period
my karma's bad, there's things i'll probably never have
until i climb out of the hole, find the gold and finally take a stab
i guess it's my land, a place that i will call home
i'm blowing smoke inside a grave, coughing now my head's stoned
i'm out of tone, i need to take another hit, quick
and drink another bottle of rum with satan, till i'm drunk as shit

i rip apart the day replaced it with the night
we're amount the deaf and blind, now we're all gonna die
we're all gonna die
we're all gonna die
Track Name: Sanctuary (feat. Enkrypted)
Sanctuary

[scratches]

i get this feeling in the back of my mind
it's like, somethings creeping down the back of my spine
i'm so, fucking high, i'm divine, i'm confined in filth
there's nothing left except this time, and that's a lot to kill

i moving still, i barely breathe, i barely even eat
i never go outside unless to smoke or down the street
cause i'm a freak, to say the least, that i'm a dog off his leash
and there's never peace inside the beast, i need a way to release, so come home

[scratches]

i get this feeling down the back of my spine
it's like i'm, going crazy in the back of my mind
i'm so, freaking high, i wont deny, i am sublime in hell
there's nothing left inside this world for me but empty shells

i'm not well, you can't tell, but i have so much stress
in my life, it's not right, i'm feeling so depressed
and i guess, i'm not impressed, but i suggest the best
advice to all the rest, be-quested lies i have confessed, so come home
Track Name: Hell Froze Over
Hell Froze Over

too bright to see, too loud to hear
provoking me, i gotta say it was a bad year
i tasting fear, i hate it here with wicked gears
that make the problems in my head, rip me ear from ear
those cowards hating me, degrading me while towers fell
they're all facing me, decapitating power cells
i'm finding wishing wells, developing plans to free the spells
it's where i dwell like the dwemmer when they said farewell
it's been like hours in hell, i'm feeling powered down
and all that bullshit i've dealt, i've felt for days on now
and i can show you how to reroute that cash cow
another road to paradise to take and make them all bow
the suns is burning out, there's no love, the funs spent
your sitting on a cloud full of hate, raining judgements
i'm done with it, i'm over it, i'm feeling sick
it's like i'm burning up quick, cause i'm stuck atop a crucifix
they only care when you're gone, no more hitting the bong
here's my heart and everything that i put in this song
it's all wrong, and nothing can ever be turned to right
everyone that's in sight is burning before my eyes i'll die tonight
i'm never right cause i'm dirty rotten weed smoker
blazing all night, i'm stoner, never see me sober
i gotta face the fucking bulldozer, i told her
that's what i get cause i found hell and froze it over

[bridge - sample]

[hook]
it's not the first time
that i have seen hell
i'm feeling frostbite
but i will live to tell
it's like the last time
i found an empty shell
i have a glass spine and mind
i'm freezing over hell
Track Name: Lycanthropic (feat. Skeleton Kode & Keenote)
LYCANTHROPIC

[hook - sample]
Our lives have turned sad
The harvest again was bad
And it's growing worse
hungry children cry

[Rude's verse]
my heart is torn, my word is born, but people never listen
all i wanna do is drink, smoke, fuck, and die tripping
but something missing, is it me or is it you
is it misdemeanor hate, is something coming unglued
is it finally coming true, the dreams i dreamt up so long ago
or am i just a puppet in this never ending show
well i don't know, when will i ever figure it out
head on with suicide, i'm getting closer with every doubt
i'm fending to shout, i'm pouting a lot and i'm pissed off
all these fake friends and girls really got me criss crossed
but evan's dead, it's only rude, i'm going tick tock
down to ride, i'm fucking high, listen up my shit rocks
the spider spins, trends into bad weekends
nothing ever helps, but here's pen and pad to bleed with
i'm blacking out again, why do i always sin
mainly cause i suck, and i'm a loser and i'll never win

[hook - sample]
Our lives have turned sad
The harvest again was bad
And it's growing worse
hungry children cry
They pray to a new god
while their people die
But fortune does not grow from a lie

[Keenote's verse]
I fear to feast where I sleep. Lucid dreams with a midnight treat.
These monsters that I see are all too routine, as are the weeps bleeding and screams.
I don't think you could put a finger on it, considering my fist is like a furry flesh comet.
Comment on my decency? Problem isn't me, it's what you see in me. Frolic freely. We were destined to come clean.
What was seen after I was gone? I had a morning well spent sorting corpses on your lawn.
Kick me? Kick me out? Try me. Run the route. Risk the doubt. Finally. You're my life source, so get lively. That's an order; no requests to like me.
I keep a tally by my bed nightly of what I ate in my sleep and what's laying right beside me.

[hook - sample]
Our lives have turned sad
The harvest again was bad
And it's growing worse
hungry children cry
They pray to a new god
while their people die
But fortune does not grow from a lie

[Skeleton Kode's verse]
spring equinox, awaken by the night fall
chain around my neck as i add to these gouged walls
self assessment, wrestles, vicious jaw of a weapon stepping to my den and bed with the crew marks and shredded denim
not a fucking rookie, dancing with some road ware
protect the packs, food, cash, try to take it get tared, get scared
judas rappers not safe here, keep on fucking with the family and i'll end your career
i lack division when i get animalistic, making primal decisions down to business, and put a net around you little fishes
making moves like the water do, textbook crushing crew like it was Waterloo
a safe haven just for the likes of you, rise of a bad mood, blessed be the bad fool, crying at the sinking moon, trying for a scrap of two, lying as the sun moves, dying in these pieces of you

[hook - sample]
Our lives have turned sad
The harvest again was bad
And it's growing worse
hungry children cry
They pray to a new god
while their people die
But fortune does not grow from a lie
Track Name: Nightmare On Orange Street
Nightmare:

[intro]
i'm not fucked up, (no i'm not)
i'm not insane, demented, disturbed, or satanic (nope)
i just wanna make ya'll love me or panic, (haha)
so do you love me?? (i fucking hate you)

[verse 1]
the camel clutch, i'm holding on this nightmare
my life sucks, and everything is unfair
i see happy people, i wish was dead
i crawled out of bed, injected venom to my head
smoked a fat bowl, laced it up, till it spread
then popped an adrenal, and washed it down with some bread
i sat there in the mirror with my eyes red
and i started feeling weird, i reached for out my meds
but it was too late, and i was super baked
i had to graduate, but i was feeling really fake
more like a headache, cancer in my brain
suicidal thoughts makes my dad say i'm insane
choke hold now, pinned down, can't move
i hear my mom say come on now choke him with two
what do i do, they always scream and slap me
she said i sucked and my music sounded crappy

[hook]
yo
can you feel it?? i feel it
or do you fear it?? yeah i fear it
do you love me?? i love you man
or do you hate me?? i fucking hate you

[verse 2]
she said sorry, and drove me to the hospital
i couldn't leave, so i started getting hostile
i guess i'm crazy, i don't feel lost at all
but i'm sorry for my self i can't escape these fucking walls
the time's slow but all these bad days went fasts
in my group i was shunned and deemed the outcast
my only friend is a girl named hope
but her name was a fool, she was addicted to dope
she was a fiend for drugs, and even stole pills
and traded me for me candy, so we could both chill
i had to write a lot about who i really was
so i found myself fast, but i couldn't hide my buzz
so i was locked in a room all padded and white
i'm an emotional fuck, with a dream of a knife
and every single night, i was dead like chris palko
hanging in that closet with them lithium altos

[hook]
yo
can you feel it?? i feel it
or do you fear it?? yeah i fear it
do you love me?? i love you man
or do you hate me?? i fucking hate you
Track Name: Imperial [prod. by Relta]
Imperial:

i hit the chronic every morning when i wake up
i stumble in when i'm coming home late, drunk
i drop dead when i overdose on 8 drugs
leave me in a ditch, bleeding out, from the fake hugs
my hate shrugs off the shoulders of the great ones
look at us now, taking money from the state funds
we make fun, shooting guns, 38 snubs
miss or hit the target, either way, we gone blaze son
my face stung, when i heard my first song sung
then i turned to rap, instead of metal, what's the wrong one
the bongs done, its all cashed, but i'm not done
never gonna stop till the gallows, where i got hung
the rocks flung, from the catapults, now won
laying siege to me, smoking weed asking how come
about one or two reasons for the doubt son
never ending sad shit life should be about fun
blot out suns with the wickedness that rude spun
crawling like a spider, getting higher, from the new drugs
the greatest one, spitting fire, while you shout run
rude the demons back on track, now i'm out son